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here's an update. i'm in afghanistan but still dont know what to think of it. i'm hoping for the best and will see what i can make out of this situation. depending on how much time i have, i may be getting pics of the local area. the jingle trucks are something else. well i'm off for now and i'll update this whenever i can.

Well lately i've had alot on my mind. between work, the fact of knowing that its almost a 100% chance about me being sent to afganistan, getting ready to leave Jan 3rd to go down to texas for 4 months to go to Combat Medic school (i volunteered to go), and my normal never ending circleful thoughts. seems like i'm always at work anymore and i have little to no time to go have fun and when i take the time to i never hearing the end of it from everyone, and it seems like i really cant find anything that brings me joy anymore. i'm really starting to think that i have taken on more than i can handle by myself at the moment but i guess i'm dealing

For a long time now i have had a craving for certain knowledge and have not been able to find it. I am starting to believe that what I seek is of a time that no longer exists and that the knowledge has been lost or hidden for one reason or another. So basically I'm starting my search for the knowledge of the Anciets. I think what i seek is not wrote down nor archived anywhere. I don't know why I am craving what i am but the craving is getting stronger and more intense as time goes on. I will be searching through any information on ancient history that I can find and eventually start to find exactly what it is i seek. this may be a life long s